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Poetry Day!!!

It was an insanely slow and boring day at work today. So instead of just mindlessly playing Street Fighter 4 on my iPod I decided to write some haiku.

Haiku #1

Stupid fly buzzing

around my head, annoying.

I want to squish you.

Haiku #2

Silent in this store.

Alone, my thoughts are loud.

I have to potty

Haiku #3

Boy in the picture

Y U No Smile For Me Here?

You are now a meme.

Haiku #4

Blue bruise on my knee.

What a pretty shade you are.

Pain when I touch, OW!

It’s true. I have finally snapped.

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I swear I am not dead.

I just sold my soul to a corporation. I kid, I love my job. I really do. I get to wake up and do something I like. I get to see some really groovy people and I make money. I miss my friends. I miss being lazy. I miss my 360. 

But I think I am finally alright. Not 100% but close.

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This…

This empty feeling will be the death of me.

Sometimes…

I start crying for no reason. It’s like a faucet gets turned on and I just start crying.

This sucks.

Fuck.

Woke up feeling like nothing matters. I have therapy today. I don’t want to go. I don’t want to talk about how I’m feeling. I don’t want to be asked why I do things over and over.

You want to know how I’m feeling? I’m sad. I’m angry. I want to die. I don’t want to cry anymore. I don’t want to feel so shitty. I want to be normal. I want to be alone. I don’t want to be lonely. I just want to be happy.

Why can’t I just find my happy?

My Busy Little Life.

I’ve started on my crazy meds. They gave me something I can’t pronounce. The side effects scares me beyond belief. I’ve started to do leper checks. I’m scared of a rash.

I got my tattoo. It’s a pink ribbon. It matches Jackie’s and Jodie’s. It’s special to me. Right now it’s gross. I hate the part where it gets all crusty.

I got 2 reviews on deck. One for Mirrors 2 and one on Saw 3D. I have unfinished sculpey in the works but I now have a sealant for them! It’ll make it all shiny!

I want to enter this contest on DA. I think I have a good macro shot that will fit. Might as well. If I don’t win it won’t be the first time my photos have been shot down.

But now it’s The Salem Witch Trials and a little bit of science to ease the crawlies.

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